I could use somebody, somebody like you.

I feel like I'm on this never-ending roller coaster ride, and i just want to get off. There's too many scary parts and good parts all tangled together making it messy and mostly really not enjoyable. When i feel like I'm enjoying the good part, like when everything is going suddenly fast and you just start to feel the thrill, all off a sudden a big dip comes and your insides feel funny and you can't think straight and you just want to stop. I guess I'm just too busy trying to enjoy this roller coaster and I'm not savouring the good parts enough, or i just need to choose a better ride in the future.



I guess now, I'm just trying to take things slow and steady. I don't want to feel that rush of such sudden excitement anymore. I want to take things as they came, feel, learn and experience. I don't want life to rush past me because time is something none of us can ever have control over. I just realised recently how much time I've wasted and how i spend too much time thinking about the past and the future that I've just not been living in the present. I'm so caught up in what used to be or what could be I'm not focused on what is. I guess from now on things are going to change and i am going to be happy with what life has to offer and with what comes my way.