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A bit behind..

I just realised its June, right then, i really need to pay more attention to whats going around me. I need to vent. Hear me out okay?


I'd admit it, i do have trust issues, either i trust people way to easily or i don't trust the people i really should. today i learnt what i fool i was and got a real slap in the face. it really hurts when all this time you think you can trust somebody and then all of a sudden the wind just changes course and comes blowing at you out of no where, it just hits you like that because you didn't see it coming because it was the most unexpected thing ever. You know who you are, i can't believe you did what you did to me. You were one of my best friends and you were like my brother. I've always looked out for you and always had your best interests at heart and is this the way you treat somebody who loves you? I was there for you when you had your problems, i comforted and consoled you when you had things going on in your life and this is the way you re-pay me? What have i ever done but look out for you the way i would to a own blood sibling. You teared and completely shattered my heart into pieces today. I'll save you the embarrassment and give you the smallest bit of respect by not telling everyone what you did even though people should know how fucked up that little stunt was. But you know what I'm not as low as you, i happen to have a heart and i guess that's what differentiates me and you. I cried so long today, too many times. I was having such a good day and when i found out what you did, it completely killed not only my mood but a small part of me as well. What were you thinking if you were thinking at all? Why would you do something so cruel and selfish? Not only was it not any of your fucking business but you don't even know HALF of what is going on, so little Mr.Play maker here can just add what he wants here and there and have things the way he wants is it? I'm sorry but the last time i checked, it's not considered normal to butt into other peoples business that don't concern you whatsoever. I cried myself to sleep twice today and woke up with an insane fucking headache and couldn't concentrate on anything for pretty much the rest of the day. So lets just re-cap it shall we?

1. You went behind my back
2. You told lies
3. You got involved other people's lives, people you don't even KNOW!
4. You almost ruined one of the best things that's ever happened to me
5. You killed a small piece of me
6. You lost my trust
7. You lost my love
8. You lost my friendship
9. You lost a friend
10. You lost me.

Is that what you wanted? Is that what you were aiming for? Are you happy now?
Well i hope you got what you wished for.
You mean nothing to me anymore.
Next time you need a shoulder to cry on because you've just been dumped or after you've just slit your wrists, i hope you find someone because you don't have me anymore.
You mean nothing to me anymore.
NOTHING.