Friendships and battles

People are good. Acquaintances are good. Friends are good. Best friends are good. Sisters are good. Family is good. Relationships ( boyfriends and girlfriends ) are a bitch though. Well ... no yeah they are a bitch, they can be like good i mean its nice to get complimented on how great your hair looks everyday but apart from that, i see no point. Friends are good they can be useful as well, but best friends, sisters, and family are probably the best. You can rely on them, trust them and they always have your back. Well i don't know about you, but i know that my friends are simply the best. My friends are always with me throughout the hardest times and i don't know what i would do without them. They truly are god sent. I don't ever judge or bitch about my friends, actually I'm going to stop using the word friends, I'm going to use the word "sisters" instead, obviously referral to those female friends. Yeah like i was saying, my friends are true friends, they aren't those kind who we do a Yasmin kiss in the morning and whenever we see them and all, yeah we do kiss and we do hug but like theres so much more than meets the eye. We talk, we laugh, we bitch, we fart, we do everything together. I treasure my friends so much :) Theres just so much to say about them, i don't know really know how to like begin and finish and everything because theres just so much to say. I am grateful for the friends i have today and I'm so glad that i moved to Malaysia, i've met the most fantastic people, had the most awesome bitch fights and yeah. Ok well some of those bitch fights aren't so great, but the recent ones were pretty hectic ;]

Sometimes some people can't be trusted, at all. What hurts even more, is when you think you're able to trust someone because you've been through a lot with them, like through many years or many days etc. What hurts the most is when you get back stabbed. Thats probably one of the worst feelings. When you think you can trust someone, and they turn around and like stab a huge rusty knife right through your tit into your heart. Ok I'm probably not making any sense what-so-ever but its making me feel good so just like keep up with me ok. Ok so i had this other friend, i've known anonymous for like five years or so, well we were childhood friends right. So if you don't know me, I'll tell you know, i've moved around quite a lot, obviously not as much as like families that are like diplomats, but i've moved around quite a lot. So naturally people lose contact with each other. But there was this one friend i had and we kept contact, we were friends and we'd fight like sometimes but until today, we've been really good friends. I could tell this person a lot of things i cant tell some people, i could be really open with this person, ok so this person is of the opposite sex, for all those clueless ditzy people out there, he was a male i mean still is, wait he could be gay, ok moving on. Yeah so this person is a tad older than me and theres a bit of an age difference. Any who we always much around online we talk about random stuff like really random stuff we talk about serious stuff, so naturally he was a really good friend of mine, like an older brother. So it really hurts when you're having a normal conversation and then like all of a sudden this so called really good friend of yours decides to have a go at you for no reason, and by having a go i mean;

"Why do you think your such a hotshot?
Why do you think your THE shit?
Why do you act like a Paris Hilton?"

So how are you like supposed to answer to that? How are you supposed to react? What are you meant to think? What do you do when your best friend says that to you? I feel so fkdjflsdjkfkjdsfkjkgjf i don't even know what to do, i guess it is sort of opening up my eyes, maybe i do act like that, but if i did my friends would tell me that I'm acting like a whore right? I mean thats what people that care about you do right? They say friends are like angels, doesn't that mean that they sort of guide the way to through this so called complicated life? Now I'm so confused, i don't know who to trust or what to do. Of all people, i never expected him to have an outburst at me of all people, I'd understand if it was somebody else but if its coming from him maybe there is some meaning behind those words. So maybe someone a very kind someone out there can explain and help me along the one of the most hardest quests life has to offer. Would anybody like to help me find out who i am, who i really am?



p.s The offer would be really appreciated and obviously I'd like totally help you to find out who you are as well oh and comments are grately appreciated ;]