Today i found out why.

All this time I've always wondering why you never did anything back.

We have this thing between us, I've never had that before.

We started off rough had a few fights, got back together sailing smoothly followed by another fight before we patched up.

That just seems to be the routine between us.

Its not that comfortable routine most people have, its different because theres so much intensity between us.

We text so much, we're so close and in a matter of no time i felt like i could open up to you like i could to any of my close friends, though we've only known each other in such a short period of time.

But it just seemed that i was always the one doing the work, putting in the effort.

Now i know why, and i don't think i could feel any more stupid.

I always wondered, why it was me who felt it more between us, i guess it was just in my head.

But i thought things changed between us, i really did.

After that last fight we had, you were the one who came to me to apologize.

I was so sure that i was done with you, i didn't want to be involved with you anymore, but you came back.

I guess i was so used to always having to be the one apologizing though it's not always my fault.

But this time, you came to me and apologized for everything.

It was me who was unsure whether or not i wanted to accept your apology and move forward.

But i did.

Things were different between us, so much better like I've never imagined it to be.

You were so much happier, the way you spoke the way you wanted me to be more apart of things, it was all so different.

I honestly thought that you had changed.

But the truth is, nothing changed.

It was always the same.

You always had your eyes for her while i had my eyes on you and now i just don't know where to look or what to do.